At the present time it is much clearer for me. I more or less accepted the fact that I am a "transvestite", and that these feeling that I "have to dress" will never go away. Although I have accepted myself, only one girlfriend "knows" about my feelings. This acceptance of myself has made me more relaxed in life, and I have even got a few relationships with girls the past years. For me the feelings now comes and go, one time I have to dress almost everyday, and the other time I do not have the feeling for months. I also found out that while I am in a relationship the need to dress is almost "zero". At the moment I am single again, but I do hope to find a nice girlfriend who understand my feelings and needs.

Last thursday was the big day for me, I finally made an appointment with Lady Cassandra. I was a little nervous but when she opened the door (she looked very beautifull) it all faded away. While drinking a cup of tea we talked a little and she asked me what kind of style I like, and what kind of clothes I have. I showed her all my clothes and she chose a few combinations. Then she started with the make-up. It took some time (about 1 hour) but the result was amazing. I could hardly recognise myself anymore, was that person in the mirror me? I had brought my own wig but she had some others for me to try on as well and the results were stunning. Trust me girls, you can leave everything to Cassandra, she is a real artist with make-up. The more photo's she took, the more comfortable I felt ..... YES, I was a real girlmodel right now, hihi. But on all good things has to come an end, I had to undress, and with great regret we removed the make-up that looked so good on me, and became myself again.